ever had the dreadful feeling of being the sole survivor on earth? jus like will smith in the movie 'the legend'. well, i did. on a scorching thursday afternoon. i had some sites to survey in tuas. ohmyfreakingwadisthechicken. damn building was located faraway from the bustop. no single soul was in sight. let alone a taxi. had to walk a freaking minimum of 3km to get there. no joke. we followed the yellow brick road, passing by trees with burnt black charcoal trunks. dried leaves were scattered everywhere and every walking step me and my partner made, crisp sounds can be clearly heard which reminded me of how i had munched on potato chips while watchin p.s. i love you the night before. seriously i thought i would jus evaporate into thin air and be one with the heat.



sometimes i hate my job, because a few of the building locatins given to us were too ulu and almost inaccessible and we had to rely only on our energizer legs. end of the day meetings in office are usually soaked with our sweat stench. in addition, the boss's expectations are too high. in his eyes, there's only the money factor which concerns him. all others he don't give a hoot about. like why we did not complete the survey. he says it like we're just wasteful resources to the company. he expects us to work like dogs and bulls on our pathetic pay. its so hard to even claim back our transport fares, let alone OT. everyday we've to meet al kinds of people. from arrogant building owners and long winded security guards to irritating managements. hey,i don't owe yall any shit man. on a positive note, i love this job as i have a fantastic, nice and easy going supervisor who understands us and encourages us to learn from our mistakes and improve in a way that's pleasant to our ears. yes he's a good leader and my role model. another point to add is that once we're out of the office, we're on our own. which means we plan our own journeys with no stress from anyone and we can slack anytime we wan, provided we've got some reports on our belt. time passes fast during work, travelling times and the vast jobscope means we won't have time like office people to doze off in front of their computers. and we move around all the time. so much better den staying in office from 8-5. hahahs. i've always wanted to stay in office and do reports instead of being a surveyor. well, my opportunity finally came when i was asked to sort out a new site list. the whole time i was feeling like i could explode out of boredom anytime. looking at the clock in the taskbar every break my eyes had, it seems like i had the time magically stopped. though i could enjoy the air con and the comfort of seating at the office table, argh, i would rather go out and survey. now, i'm in a dilemma over whether to extend my contract and work another month. pros and cons. but the main thing is still about how much i will be paid then. hahahs. yes, money matters to me now, considering how taxing the expenses in the sim course is and the never ending increase in our standard of living. where has the delicious $2 chicken rice gone to! oh wells.



i finally declare i'm shag to the max. after a day full of soccer. field match in the afternoon at bukit batok. playing for my friend's team and i only know a few of the mates. max 4? yes chapalang team. cos there's short of manpower in my friend's team so he had to pull in players like me to help out. well, expectedly and sadly, we lost the match. score's not even respectable. 7-0 it ended. seriously i don't think we were that bad to get thrashed like this. it was still 0-0 at half time. and my friend had to change tactics during half time, playing 4-5-1 instead of the balanced 4-4-2. players were played out of positions and it was too congested in centre mid, where i'm playing. our passing was jus not there and we held onto the ball for too long, inviting tackles and losing of possession. most importantly, we didn't hav any terrys or toures to go for headers. we conceded like 3-4 goals from corners and crosses. shit. i subbed out midway through second half. no motivation to play, pissed off. grr. and one thing i hav to blog about, i haven seen nelson so shagged before in my whole life, looking breathless the whole time. though he did make his best efforts to do his running thing and closing down defenders. it's a rarity to play field soccer for both of us so yep, that explains it all. evening went for second round of soccer at BH w the usual peeps. hahahs. whole body's aching and tired out. jus wanna lie on my bed the whole day and not move an inch. hahahs.



i wanna talk to u. i wanna ask about u. but y is it that everytime i try, u jus give me the hostile reply and cold shoulders. yes it's hard to be lovers but it's harder to be friends. been drunk twice last week and i'm having thoughts which should hav been gone long ago. i don't wanna drink no more. hangovers suck. this sucks. damn. kbox is quite a nice place to vent out emo stuffs. hahahs. i don't sing well, but at least i left my friends all feeling emo. an jing by jay chou. the whole room really went silent.



kudos to the autosaved function in blogger. my 'powerhouse' com crashed on me. ARGH. i need a new com! hahahs. the weather's terrible these few weeks. i'm sweating even though i'm sitting here bloggin. i still belong to the group of singaporeans with no air con. yes, no one actually believes me when i say so. but i ain't gonna complain. i'm so much more fortunate living in serangoon i must say. no earthquakes, no riots and protests. yeah serangoon rocks my socks! (:



currently listening to 3 doors down's new self titled album. yeah they're still one of my fav bands. better then goo goo dolls. hahah.